"Love can tear and rip you apart. It can kill you. But if you're lucky, it can put you back together."


Let's talk about how ghetto I am.
I'm at work and my bangs keep falling into my face
so to stop them
I used a paper clip.
Yes, a paper clip.
A huge white one that looks absolutely rediculous
unless you're far away, then it obviolusly looks much cooloer.
My boss laughed and said "Hey, whatever works".
I secretly think he considers me to be very dumb.
Which is funny, because in this instance, I am.
He's letting me paint today.
Our company owns brand new apartments
and I get to help paint the walls.
It was either that or stay in the office alone
and sit in this stupid thing.

I miss my boyfriend.
He's coming to see me tonight
which is amazing.
It's been what, two days?
What losers we are. Hah.

I went tanning yesterday
and I am so burnt.
My back is the worst.
Every time it touches my car
I want to scream.
Shut up with the "tanning is bad" bullshit
you're to die too one day, just pale and ugly.

Fuck people that get to take naps during the day.
Really, fuck you.

I need to buy one of the gossip girl books
that I'm missing
to I can keep reading the series
because I have the books that come after
the one I'm missing.
So I was thinking
instead of buying it
I'll just go to Barnes and Noble
and read it there, save some money.

Today is stupid.

Current Location: Stupid work.
Current Mood: tired

Ok, so I feel utterly pathetic for doing this, but I'm baaaccck.
As if keeping up with the social world of Myspace wasn't hard enough right?
Whatever.
It's something to do, it's something to write in and it's just another thing to keep me entertained at work (because uhh, who actually does WORK at work? I know, odd premise right?).
Anyway.
My life is FINALLY getting back on track.
I have the most amazing man in my life, and sure everyone says that, tries to covince the world that they are in love, when you've heard them tell you the same story a million times, and I USED to be that girl but this time, it's different.
He is my world.
It can't be put into words how good we are together.
"True love is your souls recognition of its counter point." Sadly, that's from Wedding Crashers, but it's true.
I feel as though without him I wouldn't be able to walk...or worse, live.
And yea, it may not be a great idea to invest this sort of depth into one person with the fear of ending up with nothing, but I'm willing to take that chance. If for some godly reason it doesn't work out in the long run (which I've never doubted once) I know I wouldn't regret a thing, or decision I've made thus far.
I feel like my head is in sync with my heart and they're both going for the same thing...or person.
It's wonderful.
And I've finally escaped the drama of this town, keeping to myself and certain others whom grace me with their pressence, ignoring those who aren'tr worth a second glance. And I've finally been able to do it...keep rid of people that is...not just anyone, the people that don't do anyhting for you, the people who drag you down into their bull shit, and the people who make you feel worthless. I'm in love with everything and everyone around me.
And it feels good.
Before these past six months I didn't remember what happiness was.
Or maybe I did and now, I just have a clearer understanding of what that is and the idea that my concept was completely wrong.

To be continued...

Current Mood: creative